My Intentions and Priorities

by Jillian on March 25, 2013 · 17 comments

I’m not even really sure where to start with this post. This is definitely going to be more on the personal side, so if you have no interest, come back tomorrow!

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Maybe this is coming out because I have so much…’unfinished business’ in my life and it’s building up. If you’ve been following me for a while, you can probably pinpoint a few things that I began to pursue and never brought to fruition, or I did and then immediately switched gears.

I tend to have a negative perspective on certain things and I cause unnecessary anxiety about the future. In other words, I make a big deal out of something that ends up being the smallest task ever. This affects me in a number of ways, including everything from my work and career to cleaning the house to my blog.

I don’t really want to rehash all of my career changes again, but I have become more and more aware of all of the opportunities I’ve passed up. I know, I’ve taken so many great opportunities, but how many have I passed up because of the fear of sticking to something that was hard?

Nothing comes easy and to succeed you need to put a lot of time in. I know this and I always have, but when you are in the situation, it’s a lot easier said than done.

Guess what, I am still paying for the Institute for Integrative Nutrition every month on my credit card. It wouldn’t be so bad if I’d actually used the material. I mean, I have all the resources to be a health coach but when you see all of the work that goes into it, it seems daunting. I mean, starting your own business? Even my blog, I’ve paid for extra work on my design, bought into workshops for better blogging, and I still find myself at a standstill. I have so many ideas for what I want to do, but I look in to the weeks ahead and know how little time I have, which discourages me from even starting to make a change.

I have these grandiose plans in my head that almost seem like an impossible undertaking, so I just give up. I set myself up for failure by looking at the end product, and not taking it step by step.

I was reading Caitlin’s post the other day about taking an idea and actually making an impact with it, and it kind of got me thinking about most individuals who start up their own business or take on these large projects feel. Most big ideas, inventions, or businesses started with one small vision and someone feeling totally overwhelmed and helpless. She started Operation Beautiful from a simple idea. I’m not the only one, and not everyone has it together. Why didn’t I take the opportunity to start my own business as a health coach? Or why haven’t I progressed this blog as much as I wanted to? Why haven’t I been able to complete that half marathon I’ve been wanting to do or commit to the fitness goals I’ve dreamed of? Or hey, why haven’t I used my outside knowledge to do bigger things with my current job role?

It all comes back to that negativity. I’ve felt like I don’t have what it takes, I don’t have the knowledge, or I wont have the time. It comes off as being lazy, which is so far from the truth. I overwhelm myself and cause anxiety before even getting to step one.

At the end of the day, we don’t have to do things we hate. We should only fill our lives with things we love to do. I’m not always the best at juggling priorities, but every person is different. I value time with my family, time to take care of personal things, hell, time for myself. I believe in a hard work ethic, but there is only so much time each person can dedicate to progressing themselves, and I find that when I overwork myself or pile on my to-do list, things are less likely to get done because I’ll panic.

That being said, my top priorities are my family (this includes Joe and my close friends), my job, and my well being (which includes health, working out, eating right). Whenever I have a to do list, blogging is the last thing to be checked off. There’s nothing wrong with that, and it is what it is. I can only do what is best for me and what hopefully relieves stress and adds more positivity to my life.

I’ve taken many hiatus’s from blogging, and that is not what I intend to do right now. During this past week’s work trip, someone said that you should “intend” and not “hope”. My intention is to bring serious awareness to (myself….and you) the fact that I need to focus on what is important. I truly appreciate all of the opportunities that have come my way because of it, which is why I don’t intend to stop all together. I’m not preaching about taking a step back, quitting, or what ever else you’ve heard from other bloggers with the same thoughts. I am simply saying “it is what it is”, and that is a hobby, and not a priority.

{ 15 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Marilyn March 25, 2013 at 7:19 pm

Do whatever you need to do to be happy. Life is too short to live any other way. xoxo

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2 Colleen @ Jimmy Choos on the Treadmill March 25, 2013 at 7:48 pm

I’m totally on the same page–I have been there so many times before. Having great ideas is the first part, but making them come to fruition is the more important (and difficult) part. I really hate half-assing anything; I’d rather shut down than do a so-so job, which means I immediately put a wall up. It becomes so much harder to accomplish a task because I have it in my head that I can’t do it.

When it comes to blogging, I always think back to why I started a blog. I wanted to keep it as a fun and creative outlet–I only blog when I’m feeling it!

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3 purelytwins March 25, 2013 at 10:09 pm

keeping blogging fun and using it as an creative outlet helps us :)
though we have a lot of ideas and things we want to do with our blog and with our life that we need to really focus on so we can – make an impact!

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4 De @ Cooking for the Other Half March 26, 2013 at 7:19 am

So, I’m a relatively new reader to your blog, but I just wanted to say how much I related to this post. I found myself nodding a lot while reading.

I have a negative streak as well and get bogged down with anxiety over small tasks that appear daunting. I find that it helps to tackle one thing at a time, to take one step at a time towards a larger goal.

I absolutely loved this line of your post: “At the end of the day, we don’t have to do things we hate. We should only fill our lives with things we love to do.” It’s so true. Life is short and time is precious. We should strive to fill every day with something we love.

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5 Jessi March 26, 2013 at 10:10 am

Hi Jillian, I’m a new reader here and like what I see!

Today over on my site you’ve been awarded with a Liebster Award… which basically means I think you’re awesome!

http://jumpingje.wordpress.com/2013/03/26/liebster-award/

Keep on writing, you’re doing great!

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6 dena @ 40 Fit in the Mitt March 26, 2013 at 11:24 am

Enjoy…I love your outlook on it. Life is too short to do things that cause us anxiety. Have fun.

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7 Paige @ Your Trainer Paige March 26, 2013 at 12:41 pm

Oh Jillian I feel you! I do the exact same thing with situations that scare me. I actually kind of have the same thoughts as you do (well, similar) and wrote a similar post yesterday – but more just stepping back from social media and focusing on life. Shoot me an email if you want to talk more!

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8 Suzanne @ Mixing It Up March 26, 2013 at 5:09 pm

I feel like I could have written this blog post myself!!! Enjoy life and the things that are really important and when you feel like blogging, I will certainly be here to enjoy reading it!!

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9 Lindsay @ Lindsay's List March 26, 2013 at 5:43 pm

just do life. if blogging naturally fits into that or you have something to say, blog it. but i’m over the stress of the whole thing. taking a step back myself – feels good.

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10 Em @ Love A Latte March 26, 2013 at 7:59 pm

I really enjoyed this post! I’m all about what you said about doing what makes you happy – life is too short! Just found your blog and excited to read more!

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11 Dede March 27, 2013 at 6:54 am

I can so identify with all you said!

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12 Katie @ KatieEnPursuit March 27, 2013 at 3:58 pm

Well said! I think we tackle ourselves with negativity because we’re easy targets & we take it. It’s so easy to get caught in the negative self talk, we all do it. Keeping a positive mindframe most of the time is key. Positivity breads more positivity :)

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13 Jamie @Sometimes Healthy Living March 28, 2013 at 1:39 pm

Hi Jillian! Though I took a break from blogging, I continued to read your blog because I love it and enjoyed the time we spent together a HLS a while back :-). I hope you realize that from the outside, to someone like me, it seems as if you have accomplished A LOT. This blog is amazing, beautifully done and continues to grow into all that I’m sure you want it to be. Just keep doing what you’re doing, and it will all work out. In the meantime, it helps to be so aware of yourself and how you are – I relate to so many of the things you said!

As I struggle to get my blog up and running, I become overwhelmed with all that is required and at the thought of being consistent. There’s some good advice in your post about this, so thanks for your help :-)

Keep writing, you’re amazing!

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14 Kristin March 28, 2013 at 1:46 pm

Really wish I had gotten to chat with you more last night… I go through this same cycle and self doubt ALL the time. All the ideas fill my head, then its overwhleming, then I think… WHO would seriously even CARE if I did all this? It comes back to confidence and being yourself and doing what makes you feel happy and fulfilled. Don’t worry about judgement or potential failure, trying and jumping into something in and of itself is a success!

Let me know if you ever wanna chat more or meetup to hash out ideas!

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15 Molly Antos March 29, 2013 at 10:50 am

I understand where you’re coming from. Sometimes having a plethora of interests/priorities is a great thing, and sometimes it means that you have to make choices and let some of them hang while you focus on the others. It is a constant struggle, but continuing to identify the place in your life that some of these things fill (like you did in this post) is the key (at least from what I have found). Don’t stop blogging TOO much, or I’ll miss ya! :)

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